Nelle is drawn to tv screens, cell phones. Off, they are high contrast (often black); on, they are also high contrast, radiating light.

Oral fixation makes more sense having a baby and witnessing her sucking reflex.
And so now is screen obsession—screen fixation—a high contrast reflex? -

- January 11.

Nelle is seeming to notice more regularities—patterns or rhythms—in the world. And she herself creates them: her smile is a tendril seeking a trellis, a butterfly seeking a flower opening—a way of light seeking a pupil.

We await her giggles, her laugh — like a fish awaits the hook it knows not.

- January 10, 2020.